I (28 M) need advice, my gf (26 F) began to love me more for the last year or so after I told I would move states when I land my dream role. Not sure on what to do next
I (28 M) met my gf (26 F) three years ago and have been dating her for the last 2.5 years. At first, I didn't have much hope for a LTR as did she but for different reasons, of course.
I am a bit of a nerd who likes programming and code development. Because of that, I didn't have much of a dating history where on the other hand my gf had a typical college life with plenty of sexual adventures and short-term relationships.
She was a free spirit, to some degree, is still a bit like that. She is currently working as a waitress.
She was upfront about her dating history as was I. We both agreed that we liked each other but didn't want to put too much pressure into the relationship as in getting our hopes up for a potential marriage down the line.
I was okay with that decision not just because of how things stood at that time but also I had been working towards switching to my dream role which would require me to move states if and when I land it.
Our sex life is decent not mind boggling. I honestly wasn't in a spot mentally to explore more of my sexual kinks due to juggling between prep and work time and our relationship. And she wasn't initiating much of those either.
She HAD a bad habit of bringing up her past sexual adventures from time to time though I didn't really know whether it was to gloat on my face or try to rile me up.
A major shift happened in our relationship, more so, on her end a year ago. When we had our date outside, she brought up some of the places we were going through as references for the kind of sex she had in the past over there which I didn't take too kindly.
I wasn't angry or such but I felt a bit indifferent about such a topic after hearing her past from time to time from her mouth. After going back and forth, I eventually let her know that whatever she did in the past didn't do much to me because I wasn't sure of the longevity of our relationship and that if and when land my dream role offer, I would move states for it.
It came as a bit of a shock to her even though that was the state of things we thought it would be at the beginning of our relationship.
After a few days post that reveal, she began to be more present for me, tried to learn to cook for me (I was mostly cooking before) and began to go above and beyond in showering her love towards me. Our sex life improved more, she began to initiate more, she became very clingy to me during and post sex.
While my feelings for her remained the same as before, it felt like her own feelings were beginning to grow even more intense. I was a bit worried because I always thought we would go our separate ways when I am going to move out when I land my dream role.
Over the last year or so, the shift in her feelings, actions and the intensity made me revisit my decision even more so. I tried to ask her about it but I couldn't take that step. I didn't want to hurt her, I grew more tender towards her for some weird reason.
I don't believe in long-distance relationships nor I would want anyone to move out of our home state just like that.
I landed my dream role recently and I need to move out in a couple of months from now on.
I know I have a big decision to make. She's even ready to come to my state and start afresh if needed.
I am planning to have this discussion soon with her, but I am not entirely sure. I love her because she's my first LTR, but asking her to come to a different state, would it give more hope to her that something more can happen between us down the line?
If I break up, would I feel guilty that I am going to hurt her or that I am not going to find someone who loves me like she does. At this point, I hate to admit she's more in love with me than I am with her. That is causing my indecisiveness.
How to approach this?
TL:DR; My gf began to love me even more ever since I told her I would move states when I land my dream role. I am a bit indecisive whether to break up with her and move out or stick with her and take her with me.