Long day at work, anyone wanna chat?

I’m using gender neutral terms because they are active on Listnook and I don’t want to be found out just yet, on the off chance they see this. Physically, I find them very attractive. I’m a sucker for eyes and they have very nice eyes. I love when they look at me; it’s intimidating but also exciting. I love their hands, their smooth, commanding voice, and their overall physical presence. I remember when I first started crushing on them I told my friends “even the way they sit is so hot”. I’ve never been attracted to anyone the way I’m attracted to them. Personality wise, they’re a very strong-willed, passionate, assertive person. I tend to be attracted to people who possess those kinds of traits because it’s what I’m lacking. I’ve always been a very quiet, reserved, “don’t rock the boat” kind of person for many reasons (culture, being bullied in the past) so I am fascinated by people who can be assertive and say what they want. They’re also a dom and I am very much a sub so that’s another reason I’m drawn to them. A lot of times, I’d be in situations and wonder to myself “What would [crush] want me to do right now?” which I learned is something that can occur in D/s relationships. They’re also one of the very few people I’ve met who can really see me. I keep up a wall and hide many parts of myself from others, but because they’re so observant they see through that. It’s impossible to hide from them and I find it both scary and arousing that they can really see me. I don’t know that I want to move on right now. I love having something to feel so deeply. I think about them daily and have been for almost a year. I wouldn’t say I was depressed before I met them, but I was definitely stagnant. Having their presence in my life made me realize I’d been waiting for someone like them. I love the ways I’ve changed because of them.